Why I left Mormonism
Documentation on my reasons for leaving Mormonism is listed
at the beginning of my story. These links are here so that it is clear I left Mormonism
because Mormonism is not what it claims to be. I did not leave due to hurt feelings or
"sin".
Documentation for those investigating Mormonism
The reasons are numerous and difficult to confine to a few
words in a post on this web site. This was originally written as a letter to a friend, a
Mormon, who wanted to know why I left Mormonism. She too later left Mormonism.
This is a listing of what is in this post:
- Brief Background of My Life as a Mormon
- Leaving Mormonism and Some Experiences as a Mormon
- History of Joseph Smith
- Book of Mormon
- Book of Abraham
- The Temple
- Church Members
- Glad to be Out
A Brief Background of My Years as a Mormon
I joined the Mormon Church when I was 20 years old and living
in Upper Michigan. I was a college student and was introduced to the church by a roommate.
I graduated with a BS degree in metallurgical engineering and I went on to graduate school
at the University of Utah. At the UofU I was asked to go on a mission for the church. I
served a 2 year mission in Finland from 1974-1976, which I fully paid for myself. On
return from my mission, I went back to graduate school and received an MS in engineering
at Michigan Technological University. One month later I was married in the temple in
Washington D.C. I served for the next 18 years in numerous callings such as the Elders'
Quorum President, Young Mens' President, clerk etc. I was fully committed to the church
and believed in it with all my heart, mind and money.
Leaving Mormonism
Leaving Mormonism was not a step I took lightly. It is
extremely painful finding out that Mormonism is a fraud. I was a member for over 20 years.
The realization that we (my whole family) had been deceived also made me angrier than I
had ever experienced.
When I studied my way out of Mormonism it occurred in
distinct layers or stages. The first stage was the Book of Abraham. This has the only
physical evidence (the papyri) that can be studied of the unique LDS scriptures. I read
everything I could find both pro and con. The LDS position was clearly unsustainable and
absurd. Next was studying LDS history. I even used the official LDS materials and then
acquired the pre-edited source materials the official LDS history has been based on. I got
the Journal of Discourses on CD-ROM. What is amazing is the wealth of documents. There
perhaps is no other religion that can have its official history be refuted so thoroughly.
Next was the Book of Mormon. I kept wanting to cling to that for some reason. The
archaeological evidence, materials readily available in Joseph Smith's time (which I had
not known before) and on and on had the BofM crashing to the floor too. The last and most
puzzling stage was the general authorities. Are these men liars or dupes? It appears they
are a mixture of both.
President Kimball and his wife toured Finland in 1975 when I
was a missionary and spoke to small groups of us. What really struck me were two
observations that I never acted on until I began seriously questioning the church. The
first was of Pres. Kimball. He was clearly a humble man, but of very limited intelligence,
at least when he was 80 some years old. I was a little disturbed, but trusted everything
was in the Lord's hands. He spoke on how we will become gods and the normal missionary
motivational stuff. What was really striking was when Sister Kimball spoke to us. In part
of her talk she digressed from an apparently memorized (from being given so many times)
speech and talked about an experience at the University of Utah. She took an institute
class there while her husband was an apostle and was troubled by what the instructor (an
LDS liberal evidently) was presenting to the class. She expressed her troubles with her
husband who lightly dismissed them. The casual dismissal was a problem for her. What is
fascinating now is that she would have expressed any doubt at all to us and it was clearly
out of context with the talk she was giving. This digression occurred in mid-thought on
another subject. When we got our transcripts of the talk, I noticed that this was not
included. Here was history being rewritten right before my eyes. I did not act on it nor
express to anyone my concern. I let it go.
Another disturbing item was the Hofmann forgeries in the
1980s. In the Ensign there was a picture showing the Prophet President Kimball with, if I
remember right, President Hinkley and other General Authorities looking at the Anton
manuscript, which was a forgery. They believed it to be legitimate. The lack of revelation
was clearly shown by these same men who are trying to tell us they have a testimony of the
Book of Mormon or of Joseph Smith. They could not detect a bogus document of great
importance. Again, I let it go.
The fact that the general authorities go to great pains to
cover embarrassing historical events shows to me they know what is going on. There are
perhaps a few sincere ones who dismiss the evidence of its origins by not looking at or
thinking about it. This appears to have been the case with President Kimball.
We officially left the church in March of 1994 through a
letter requesting our names be removed from the church records. Since that time, in all
too typical mind control like fashion, members of the church have avoided us. The Regional
Representative even came up from Alabama and spoke out against us in a Sacrament meeting
three weeks after we left and told the members that if they ever talk to us or if we give
them materials, they are to contact their Bishop. Only an organization that had something
to hide would be paranoid about the truth being revealed about itself. It is interesting
that we would be considered such a threat. We had done nothing except request our names be
removed from the records of the church. That was all. We learned that we really had few
friends within Mormonism.
LDS History
The visitation of 1820 of God and Jesus to Joseph Smith has
been shown by the mass of information on the supposed event, to have never occurred. The
date conflicts with other recorded historical events and even with Joseph Smith's mother's
account of her son's history! No one ever mentioned this revelation until Smith dictated
it 18 years later! It plays no role at all in Mormon history until the 1860s. His early
hand written account (1831-1832 diary) does not even mention God the father visiting. He
forgot that God visited him? That is absurd. As Smith got older, he got bolder in his
claims of power and visitations and the creating of an imaginary history is just part of
that. He did this when there were fewer eyewitnesses around who could claim such events
never happened or did not happen the way he testified to. When a Mormon reads the official
history today it appears everything occurred in a certain order when in reality most items
were back dated and created out of thin air to lend credibility to the ever increasing
stories.
The official Mormon history has been heavily rewritten. This
is one of the most disturbing things I discovered in our research of the church. Even the
official History of the Church is only 40% Joseph Smith's writings when it is still
claimed to be 100%. The 40% has been rewritten so as to be "faith promoting" and
the 60%, which was not his writing at all, was selectively chosen from other people's
writings and rewritten to make him out to be something he was not.
Here is a simple example of how Joseph Smith was a fraud. You
can read this in the official Mormon History, but few Mormons ever bother to read it. Some
farmers in Kinderhook devised a hoax in 1843 and made up some copper plates which they
claimed contained ancient writings. They planted them in an Indian burial mound and later
dug them up again. When Smith saw the plates, he immediately "translated" part
of them, which (he claimed in his diary) identified the writings as from "a
descendant of Ham, through the loins of Pharaoh...". Here is the exact quote from the
Documentary History of the Church:
"I insert fac-similes of the six brass plates found near
Kinderhook, in Pike county, Illinois, on April 23, by Mr. Robert Wiley and others, while
excavating a large mound. They found a skeleton about six feet from the surface of the
earth, which must have stood nine feet high. The plates were found on the breast of the
skeleton and were covered on both sides with ancient characters."
"I have translated a portion of them, and find they
contain the history of the person with whom they were found. He was a descendant of Ham,
through the loins of Pharaoh, king of Egypt, and that he received his kingdom from the
Ruler of heaven and earth. "
For many years, the church claimed that these plates were
authentic ancient writings, in spite of the fact that the farmers later admitted the hoax
- evidently the fact that Smith had translated part of them made it too embarrassing to
accept the hoax. After resorting to more and more implausible and desperate arguments, the
church flip-flopped about 10 years ago, and now admits that the plates are phony. The 1981
August Ensign has the statement where the church admits that the plates were a hoax. Of
course, this leaves them with the embarrassing quote from Smith's diary.... In spite of
the fact that this quote is confirmed by contemporary newspaper reports, they conclude
that THIS has to be a false report (indeed, many supposed entries in Smith's diary are
generally regarded as fraudulent -- something that church historians don't like to
emphasize).
The essential problem here is not the Kinderhook plates
themselves, of course. The problem is that since Smith is revealed as credulous or
deceitful in cases where he CAN be checked, the Book of Mormon translation, where he
cannot be checked, is rendered highly suspicious.
The church has been deceitful in its creating the image of
Joseph Smith as an unlearned country boy. He was very intelligent and capable of reading
at a high level and memorizing enormous materials. The primary source for the Book of
Mormon was a book written by a man named Ethan Smith (no relation) who lived a short
distance from Joseph and was a minister to a family none other than Oliver Cowdery's. This
book is called the View of the Hebrews and was written in 1823 and republished in 1825.
This book contained everything Joseph Smith needed to create the Book of Mormon.
The Book of Mormon
The "keystone" of the church is unquestionably the
Book of Mormon. If the book can be shown to be a product of the 19th century, the church
is then not what it claims to be. Archaeology in the old world continues to uncover
physical evidence of biblical history. This is not the case with new world archaeology and
the Book of Mormon. In fact, archeologists have stated that the last 2 decades have been
devastating to Book of Mormon archeology. Mormon apologists are now resorting to
"internal evidences" which are addressed elsewhere on this site since they
realize there is no hard evidence at all for the Book of Mormon.
The most compelling evidence of the fictional nature of the
Book of Mormon, from an archaeological view, is the things which have not been found. This
part of my post is liberally copied from some documents on Mormon archeology.
Cities
Numerous books and papers, of which I have many, describe
proposed Book of Mormon locations for cities and for the "narrow neck of land".
All of them differ significantly. No city has yet been identified as being Nephite or
Lamanite. This is significant in that Zarahemla was occupied for hundreds of years. Almost
all geography mentioned in the Book of Mormon is in Mormon's abridgment of the plates. He
would have known which locations would have been destroyed by the crucifixion. Therefore,
the weak LDS apologist stance that the cities were destroyed is not valid. Remember we are
talking about a time period from 2000 BC to 400 AD and millions of people and these cities
they occupied have yet to be found.
A curious note is that when the Nephites landed in the
Americas there were already millions of inhabitants in the land with large cities and
infrastructure. Why are these peoples not mentioned?
Plant and Animal Life
There are four major crops mentioned in the Nephite records.
These are:
- Barley (Mos 7:22, 9:9, Alma 11:7, 15)
- Figs (3 Ne 14:16)
- Grapes (2 Ne 15:2, 4, 3 Ne 14:16)
- Wheat (Mos 9:9, 3 Ne 18:18)
Archeological findings for the time period of the Book of
Mormon:
- Barley NONE {an new world variety was found in Arizona and
totally unrelated}
- Figs NONE
- Grapes NONE
- Wheat NONE
This negative score on the plant-life test should not be
treated too lightly. An abundance of evidence supporting the existence of these plants has
been found in other parts of the world of antiquity. The existence of numerous
non-Book-of-Mormon plants (maize, lima beans, tomatoes, squash, etc.) has been supported
by abundant archeological findings. Quoting from Tom Ferguson: "I (Tom Ferguson)
participated in excavating a trench a the edge of the Grijalva river in which we found a
ceramic vessel is a stratum dating to about 200 BC. The vessel contained lima beans that
had been burned anciently and discarded--pot and beans--as too badly burned to be edible.
And yet they were still in their pristine and perfect form. The beans were carbon-14 dated
helping to place the whole stratum on a true time scale. Art portrayals in ceramics,
murals, and sculptured works--of ancient plant life--are fairly commonplace. Thousands of
archeological holes in the area proposed have given us not a fragment of evidence of the
presence of the plants mentioned in the Book of Mormon. The holes include the great one
dug by Edwin Shook at Tehuacan, Puebla, Mexico. He excavated a cave -- going back to 5000
BC., finding most of the major plants of the area. But no wheat, barley, figs or
grapes."
I would like to note that wheat is very durable. Wheat in
near perfect condition has been frequently found in the Egyptian pyramids dating back
thousands of years. There is absolutely no evidence from any source that wheat was ever
used in the ancient Americas. This alone brings the Book of Mormon into serious doubt.
Animal Life
This section is fun and Mormons are derided here for claiming
horses and elephants were used by the ancients in America. This derision is for good
reason, for they have never been found! There are more animals mentioned which reinforces
the fictional nature of the Book of Mormon.
There are many animals mentioned in the Nephite records.
These are:
- Ass
- Bull
- Calf
- Cattle
- Cow
- Butter
- Milk
- Flocks
- Goat {the Nephites claimed to have found the domestic goat no
less!}
- Herds
- Horse {the horse plays a major role in the Nephite and
Lamanite societies}
- Ox
- Sheep {this was a major animal in the Book of Mormon}
- Sow
- Swine
- Elephants
Archeological findings for the time period of the Book of
Mormon:
- Ass..... NONE
- Bull.... NONE
- Calf.... NONE
- Cattle.. NONE
- Cow..... NONE
- Butter.. NONE
- Milk.... NONE
- Flocks.. NONE
- Goat.... NONE
- Herds... NONE
- Horse... NONE
- Ox...... NONE
- Sheep... NONE
- Sow..... NONE
- Swine... NONE
- Elephants (NONE contemporary with the Book of Mormon)
Again from Tom Ferguson: "Evidence of the foregoing
animals has not appeared in any form -- ceramic representations, bones or skeletal
remains, mural art, sculptured art or any other form. However... evidence has been found
in several forms of the presence in the Book-of-Mormon times of other animals--deer,
jaguars, dogs, turkeys etc. The zero score presents a problem that will not go away with
the ignoring of it. Non-LDS scholars of first magnitude, some who want to be our friends,
think we have real trouble here. That evidence of the ancient existence of these animals
is not elusive is found in the fact that proof of their existence in the ancient old-world
is abundant. The absence of such evidence...is distressing and significant, in my
view."
Metals
I will be briefer on the metals, but this is fascinating to
me as I have both a BS and MS in metallurgical engineering.
Evidence supporting the existence of these metals, skills and
products...at this time as follows:
- Bellows....... NONE
- Brass......... NONE
- Breast Plates. NONE
- Chains........ NONE
- Copper........ NONE
- Iron.......... NONE
- Ore (mining).. NONE (this is very significant, no evidence of
mining activities)
- Plows......... NONE
- Silver........ NONE
- Swords........ NONE (none that are metal)
- Steel......... NONE
Again from Tom Ferguson: "Metallurgy does not appear in
the region until about the 9th century A.D. ...I regard this as a major weakness in the
armor of our proponents and friends". ...Art does not portray the existence of
metallurgical products or metallurgical activity. Again, the score is zero.
There are so many items archeologically, historically and
using textual criticism to show the Book of Mormon to be fictional, that anyone willing to
do a little study will reach the same conclusion.
There is a lot of Mormon mythology that states that the Book
of Mormon has been "proven" by such and such a find or the uncovering of a city.
When investigated ALL of these claims have been shown to be false. The myths are
circulated in the Mormon culture by Sacrament meeting talks, Priesthood meeting
discussions and in LDS social circles so much, that Mormons who do not investigate the
source of the information, believe the stories to be true. They use these false stories to
"strengthen their testimonies". Please see section on Problems with believing
in Mormonism / Mormon Apologetics on this site for a letter from the Smithsonian which
verifies these statements.
Book of Abraham
The Book of Abraham is another document where Smith is a
perpetrator of a fraud. This is the translation of an Egyptian papyrus which came into
Smith's possession, and which he claimed to have been written by Abraham in Abraham's own
handwriting and with his signature!. Note, that these papyri were too new to be Abraham's
by almost 1500 years!! There was no one in Joseph Smith's time who could refute the
"translation" as can be done today. So he was able to take advantage of people's
ignorance of Egyptian. Smith charged admission to see the papyrus. Smith even prepared an
Egyptian Grammar based on this papyrus. Smith's Egyptian Grammar was not published until
the 1960's, and needless to say, it bears no resemblance to what we now know of actual
Egyptian grammar.
The papyrus disappeared and was believed to be lost, but it
turned up again in the Metropolitan Museum in NY, in 1967. Alas, the papyrus, which can be
easily read by Egyptologists, is an ordinary Egyptian funerary papyrus from the 1st
century A.D. and the text has absolutely nothing to do with the Book of Abraham! The
attempts by the church to rescue this book are not much more plausible than the arguments
used to support the Kinderhook Plates. Some Mormon scholars claim, for example, that the
text of the Book of Abraham was somehow secretly encoded into this Egyptian papyrus or
that the text somehow "inspired" Smith, in spite of the fact that there is no
resemblance in content. Again, in a case where Smith can be checked, he comes up wanting.
THE TEMPLE
The temple ceremony or the endowment is nothing less or more
than Joseph Smith's copying of Masonic rituals. Joseph Smith received the first three
degrees of Masonry on March 15th and 16th of 1842. Less than two months later (May 4,
1842) he gave the endowment ceremonies. (see History of the Church, vol. 5 pp. 1-2).
The three bloody oaths that Mormons used to make in the
temple and changed in 1990 (the two oaths that go with the two tokens of the Aaronic
priesthood and the oath that goes with the first token of the Melchizedek priesthood)
appeared in the temple ceremony in the same order as in Masonry. In both cases (temple and
Masonry) the first oath mentioned the slitting of the throat. The second spoke of the
cutting open of the breast so that the heart and vitals could be removed and the third
mentioned disembowelment. In all three cases the same penalties were demonstrated. This
all appears to be too similar to be a coincidence.
I met Reed Durham, who was president of the Mormon History
Association, when I was at the University of Utah in 1973-1974 working on my masters
degree in engineering. He wrote the following. "...I am convinced that in the study
of Masonry lies a pivotal key to further understanding Joseph Smith and the Church... The
many parallels found between early Mormonism and the Masonry of that day..." Joseph
Smith was adept at copying and using other materials to create what he needed. The temple
ceremony is just Masonry modified. It is copied from the book "Freemasonry
Exposed" by William Morgan who published it in 1827. The wording in the Mormon temple
ceremony, in many cases, is exactly the same as from this book. I will quote from Morgan's
book page 84. "He (the candidate) is raised on what is called the five points of
fellowship.... This is done by putting the inside of your right foot to the inside of the
right foot of the person to whom you are going to give the word, the inside of your knee
to his, your left hands on the back of each other..." Mormons who went to the temple
before 1990 will find this quite striking. There are many more examples, but this one will
do to make the point. The 1990 version of the temple ceremony removed this section since
it was an obvious copy from Morgan's book and women objected to being held so closely by a
stranger while at the veil.
CHURCH MEMBERS
I believe deceit goes on at all levels of the church by
seasoned members, with much of it well intended, but done with incredible ignorance. The
degree of deceit varies with the intelligence, knowledge and church position of the
seasoned members involved. When a member of the church brings up a historical or doctrinal
problem, a seasoned member has learned how to give pat answers which give a superficially
satisfactory resolution. For example, the question of why is the temple so similar to
Masonry may get asked. The standard answer is that Masonry goes back to Solomon's temple.
Any reasonable inquiry into that myth will show it to be absurd historically. This does
seem however to satisfy one who does not dig any deeper and does not want to be troubled.
Senior members of the church dole out such dribble all the time. In many cases they do not
know themselves and give such a response because it was satisfactory to them. More
intelligent individuals, such as Hugh Nibley, use their prolific creation of unrelated
materials to confuse the question and the normal church member then concludes all must be
well because someone wrote so much about it and the member is too overwhelmed to be
troubled anymore. Is this deceit? I think it is. A seasoned member usually wants to give
the impression of having superior knowledge and spirituality with no doubts expressed
verbally about his or her faith. This facade is required in leadership positions and is
also required in most Mormon social circles. The senior levels of the church are composed
of individuals who hide behind their positions of trust and are experts at giving great
impressions. This is subtle and powerful deception.
Glad to be Out
Mormons have a lot of fear when thinking about leaving the
church. All authoritarian organizations put fear into its members teaching that terrible
things will happen to you if you ever leave. The Jehovah's Witnesses and other groups are
actually worse than Mormonism in creating fear. Actually life outside of Mormonism is much
better than I could have imagined. I wish I would have done this years ago when I first
began to realize there were problems with Mormonism. I would have been better yet, to have
never joined.
